Saturday, May 23, 2015

Day 76 - Day Four of Juicing

Saturday, May 23, 2015, 3:28pm

Today I ate a couple handfuls of my seven year old's Chocolate Teddy Grahm Crackers for breakfast. I was having the usual morning sugar craving and I somehow thought I would be able to only eat a few of the small teddys but ended up eating a few handfuls. Ugh. 

It's 3:30pm and instead of having a traditional lunch, I had my first juice of the day. I wanted something packed with nutrients, something with both kale and cucumber, so I chose to have the Healthy Green Juice again (the juice I had on day one). I must be getting used to these juices because they are getting much easier to drink. 

I had planned on having a small Southwest Chicken Salad for lunch but it's getting so late I may just wait and have that for dinner. 

I am feeling a bit antsy. I could do some housework but am really not in the mood. I really feel like going on a walk. My kids are eating lunch right now...maybe when they're done I can convince them to go for s walk or something. Either way, the little one would have to go if I went since she is only seven and can't be left home by herself. Her sister is not old enough to babysit her yet. Even though my older daughter is thirteen, she and her sister still fight/argue quite a bit so I would not feel comfortable having her babysit uet, even if it's just for a few minutes to run to the store. Someday she'll be able to watch her sister but not today. 

The little one likes geocaching so we may go to that for a bit. The weather app on my iPhone shows that it's 61 degrees right now so we'll probably need to dress warm since it will only get cooler as the day progresses. 

As far as the juicing goes, I haven't notice any significant changes yet. My skin is the same, my energy levels may have  improved a little but it's hard to tell, overall I haven't really noticed anything besides helping with the normal hunger pangs. I've replaced my mid morning snack with the juice (I used to have an apple or something similar in between breakfast and lunch) so I'm not really eating less calories per day. Actually... The more I think about it I realize the juices probably have reduced my daily calorie intake. I was able to skip lunch on Wednesday and Friday (and possibly also today). On Wednesday I brought lunch with me but didn't want to go nextdoor to heat it up (I have two clients right next to each other and the one I was at doesn't have a kitchen or microwave). I ended up snacking on some organized granola that I added some chia seeds to. 

On Friday I just didn't have time to stop for lunch. I was at my office until 2pm. I the ran over to meet with a new client which lasted until 3:45pm. I then had to pick up my kids to take them to their 4:30pm dentist appointment. By the time we were done it was a little after 5:00pm and I still had to go to the grocery store (it's amazing how much fruit and veggies I am going through since using the juicer). 

I would never advocated for skipping meals but what I've noticed is that I don't  really need a meal after after a juice. Since I've been having my juice around 11am every day when lunch time comes around I'm just not that hungry. So instead of eating a typical 300 calorie lunch I find that I only need a light snack. I bring a piece of fruit with me every day along with a bag of carrots. Sometimes I throw in something else, like an extra piece of fruit, or some granola but the fruit and carrots always stay the same. 

The other change that I have made is how I eat my food. When I used to eat dinner I would always start with the meat then move on to the carb/starch and lastly move to the veggy. Now, I start with my veggy. Once all of my veggies are eaten up I move to my protein. Once the protein is gone if I have any room left I move onto the carb (brown rice or quinoa). 

One of documentaries I watched taught about the importance of filling up on veggies and fruit. The guy being interviewed said "Instead of thinking 'I want it but I can't have it' say to yourself 'I can have it but don't want it'". He said that he had been overweight for years and had tried dieting more times than he could count. Every time he would basically do the same thing. He would go to the grocery store on the weekend to stock up on healthy food to start his diet the coming Monday. On Monday morning, by 11am he would always feel u get and deprived. Looking back, what he finds intersting is that, when he wasn't dieting, he could sometimes go until 1pm without eating or even thinking about food. But when he dieted, he had that "deprived" mentality and therefore tended to think about food ALL OF THE TIME. I have had the same issue. 

The same guy explained how important it is to not feel deprived. It's simple, when you can't have something you tend to want it more. So instead of cutting the food out of your diet, don't. Just add ten times more vegetable and fruit to your diet and always eat those first. By doing this, you're still "allowed" to eat certain foods but chances are, you'll be so full of healthy food, you won't have much room for the nonhealthy food. 

All of these tips I think about often. It's a little different for me since I really do think I'm an actual sugar addict. For me it's simple: If I can't control myself around a certain food I can't eat it. I'm hoping that changes some day but, from what I know about addiction, it sounds like this will be something I'll have to be mindful of for the rest of my life. Whatever it takes to be healthy... 

Day 75 - Day Three of Juicing

Today I used another recipe from www.RebootWithJoe.com. This one was called "Radiant Antioxi-Orange Juice". The ingredients are:

- 2 small oranges (I used 2 med/large oranges)
- 3 carrots (I used 5 small/medium carrots)
- 1-2 cucumbers (I used 1)
- 1 yellow bell pepper
- 1inch piece of ginger 

This juice wasn't that bad, especially compared the yesterday's beet/kale juice.  I will definitely make this one again. I will probably add a second cucumber next time and maybe a leaf or two of kale to get some added nutrients. 

Day 74 - Day Two of Juicing

This morning I made my second juice. I found this recipe on www.RebootWithJoe.com and it's called "Simple Juice, Endless Health Benefits" (kind of a weird/long name...). This juice contains:

- 6-8 kale leaves (I used 8)
- 1 green apple
- 2 lemons
- 2 small or 1 medium beet (I used 1 medium beet)

This recipe was absolutely disgusting. I was sure it had amazing health benefits though so I basically plugged my nose and forced it down. It was so gross. I tried using a large swig of mouthwash afterward to rid my mouth of the taste which helped but there was still a hint of the nasty bitter after taste. This juice was so gross I doubt I will make it again. 


Thursday, May 21, 2015

Day 74 - Finally Lost Some Pounds!

Thursday, 5/21/15, 8:13am

This morning I was thinking... Am I going to weight the same 158-159 pounds in a month, two months, six months...? It's frustrating when you are really doing all you can do but your weight isn't dropping. At that point your only two choices are to: 1) Give up and gain all te weight back and continue gaining weight; or 2) Keep doing what you're doing and just see what happens. Since eating unhealthy is just not an option anymore (most of the food I wouldn't eat now even if I could) my only really choice has been to keep going. 

These thoughts led to another question: If I weigh myself every day (like I have in the past) what would I see? Would I see my weigh go up one day and down the next or would my weight just stay the same? In the past when I weighed myself daily I would see the scale go up a few ounces one day and then down a few plus an ounce or two the followif day. Instead of logging the constant flucuations I would only log my weight when it had dropped below my previous recorded weight. This let me see how my weight was going down over the course of a week and month. 

I curiously stepped on the scale this morning wondering if I had:
a) Gained weight 
b) Was at the same weight
c) Lost an ounce or two

I was ecstatic when I saw that I had lost over 3 pounds!!!  My weight is now 155.0 pounds. 

Finally!!!

Day 73 - Day One of Juicing

Tuesday, 5/21/15

Today I made my first juice with my new juicer. The juice contained:

1/2 of a cucumber 
1 bale of kale (about 6 leaves)
3 stalks of celery
1 apple
1/2 of a lemon

The juice wasn't great but at least it wasn't that strong. The main problem was all of the disgusting pulp in the second half of the bottle. I had brought the juice with me to a client's and didn't have anything to strain it with.  I tried using a papertowel without much luck. I drank as much as I could stomach (about 3/4 of the total batch) and then threw the rest out. 

I didn't notice any significant changes in my body from having the juice (not that I would from just two glasses in one day) but I wasn't nearly as hungry throughout the day. 

Tuesday, May 19, 2015

Day 72 - Tuesday

Tuesday, 5/19/15, 8:18am

I thought Monday's were the worst but in reality Tuesday's are really the worst. That's because I have to be at my client's by 10am which leaves zero time to exercise in the morning before work. It also means that I'll be getting off work at 6:15pm and won't get home until 7:00-7:30pm. 

This morning is one of those mornings where I am anxious to go for a run. My ankles are pretty sore though so maybe it's best that I don't run today. Instead I'll try doing some cardio at home (planks, ice skaters, mountain climbers, etc...). 

I weighed myself on my mom's scale to see if my scale was broken. It isn't. I really do weigh about 159. Day 72 of eating a healthy 1200/day calorie diet combined with 4-7 days of exercise per week and I have lost zero pounds. I have gone down two belt sizes but am flabbergasted as to how I still weigh almost 160 pounds. I started taking my thyroid medication again and doubled the dose. Without health insurance I have to try and self diagnose these issues. It's so frustrating that I have to wait until January 2016 to be able to sign up for insurance.  

Monday, May 18, 2015

Monday- Weigh-In

I made the mistake of weighing myself this morning. The only reason I did was because of the diet bet I'm doing. I have a month (April 27-May 27) to lose 4% of my body weight. Since my starting weight was 159.0 pounds I have to lose about 6.4 pounds to win. 

You have to weigh yourself in the beginning and then once in the middle (which I did today). If you don't, you'll be disqualified because they don't want people trying to lose all of the weight the last few days of the bet. They want people to try losing weight the healthy way. 

If I didn't "have" to weigh myself I wouldn't have. Either way, I am regretting that I did. I think I'm going to bow out of this diet bet to save my sanity. I was feeling great this morning until I got on that darn scale. I hadn't weighed myself in a couple weeks so I was excited to see if I had lost some weight (at least a pound or two)...But no... I didn't lose ANY weight these past few weeks. I weigh EXACTLY THE SAME as I did three weeks ago. Ugh. Actually, I weight exacky the same as I did six weeks ago!! 158.6. WTF. 

Anyway, not going to let it ruin my day. F@ck the scale, I'm going on a run. 

Day 71 - Monday

Monday, 5/18/15, 8:03am

Weekend Update

The weekends always seem to go by so fast. We had a nice weekend. On Saturday my younger daughter had a play date with her BFFs (twin girls) and my brother came by for a little while. On Sunday I took the girls to a local tennis court to play some tennis. My older daughter was getting sick of hiking every weekend. When I asked her what outdoor activities she liked she suggested tennis. Thankfully my mom had three tennis rackets (two adult and one kids) that we could borrow. 

After tennis we stopped at the grocery store and then came home to straighten up the house before my mom arrived for dinner. I roasted a chicken with a side of gravy (freakin awesome), brown rice, and broccoli. It was delicious. We had some Pinot white wine with dinner that topped everything off perfectly. I normally don't drink but it was a really nice evening, and it was the first time we had my mom over for dinner at the new house. 

My favorite part of the weekend was definitely Sunday. I had so much fun playing tennis with my kids but, more importantly, they had a blast playing tennis. My younger daughter and I played against my older daughter and every time we scored a point we had to do a little dance which got hilarious. 

Dinner with my mom was also really nice. All in all it was a very good weekend. 

Saturday, May 16, 2015

Day 69 - Saturday 5/16/16

Saturday, 5/16/15, 5:00pm

I was so unbelievable tired when I woke up this morning. I'm not sure if it was all of the running I did this past week or what but I was super groggy and tired when I woke up today. Thankfully my younger daughter had some friends coming over at noon for a play date so I had to force myself (and my kids) to get up and do some much needed housework. 

I have come to realize the importance of getting up and moving around in the morning, after coffee of course. If I stay in bed and watch an episode or two of TV on Netflix on my iPad I find myself feeling lazy and I lack motivation to get up and do anything the rest of the day. If I get up and do yoga, for for a run, of do housework, I find that I am energized and feel good throughout the day. All it really takes is moving around for an hour or so. On mornings like today it's very hard to get up and do much of anything unless I'm forced to (like today). That is why I like to make plans between 11am and noon on Saturday. Then on Sunday I like to plan a fun activity outdoors for the kid's and I. The last couple of weeks we've been hiking, something my older daughter is quite sick of. She mentioned an interest in tennis though so I've decided to get a couple tennis rackets so we can start playing tennis on the weekends. I would love to get a bike to go riding with my kids but they are pretty expensive. 

The friends got picked up about twenty minutes ago. At the same time my brother stopped by to drop off something he had bought for my older daughter. I am looking around my messy house wondering why I even bothered cleaning BEFORE the seven year olds came over. Lol. 

I'm not sure what we'll do tomorrow but I'm sure I'll think of something. 

Friday, May 15, 2015

Day 66 - Recap

Wednesday 5/13/15

To recap today, I went on a 10k run!!, worked for a few hours, came home and made...you guessed it...tacos! I know I swore off tacos but I am on a tight budget and I had left overs from last night. This time, instead of frying up eight mini corn tortillas in loads of oil and stuffing them with a tiny bit of meat, I cooked two regular size corn tortilla with 1/4 tablespoon oil for each. I then filled the two tortillas with loads of 96% fat free taco meat. They were still delicious and a less than half of the calories of last nights tacos. 

My ankles are acting up again from running. I'm not exactly sure why. A couple years ago it was the top of my feet and ankles that hurt. This time it's the inside side of my ankles. My right is also a bit sore, it actually almost feels numb... It's a weird sensation. 

Today's run was great but left me feeling tired and hungry for most of the day. I've come to realize that a 30 minute run is energizing but anything over 45-50 minutes is tiring. It's still worth it though. All of my hard work will pay off when I cross my first full marathon finish line. :)

Wednesday, May 13, 2015

Day 66 - No More Taco Nights

Wednesday, 5/13/15, 7:58am

Last night when I finished updating my food journal in MFP I realized that I had forgotten to include an ingredient from dinner. I cook the corn tortillas in a pan of canola oil. I have no idea how much oil soaks into the tortillas but I assumed it was at least a tablespoon. Once that was entered I noticed that the tacos I had for dinner contained over 600 calories, more than half of my daily calories. 

I was hungry for most of the day yesterday and ate only two snacks. I was SURE I was going to come in way under my daily calorie limit. I was shocked that I ended up almost going over. I think this may be the key to why I haven't lost weight. 

This week I am really going back to basics. First, i decided to keep a close eye on the amount of sugar I consume going forward to insure I don't go over my daily limit. Next, I decided to really track every single morsel of what I eat or drink. I thought I was doing this before but I was so focused on not feeling like I was dieting I think I may have made some mistakes. I am motivated again like I was in the beginning and it feels good. 

Instead of using weightloss to motivate me to exercise I am using the pending half marathon I'm committed to doing to motivate me. If I wanted to lose weight faster I would go to the gym. But its exhilarating pushing myself to run farther and farther each day. I never though I would be able to run 5k. On Monday I ran 8k! 



Tuesday, May 12, 2015

Day 65 - Cravings Subsiding?

Tuesday, 5/12/15, 6:58am

This morning I woke up craving sugar, but I do think the intensity of the craving was less than it usually is. Today I am sticking with the plan: eat less sugar. 

According to MFP I am allowed 74 grams of sugar a day.  I went through my food log to check to see if I was going over the limit. I only checked about a week back and was surprised that I only went over my sugar allowance by one or two days a week. I was even more surprised when I looked at the sugar in each food individually. Four Red Vines have 140 calories and 16g of sugar. A cup of Special K cereal has 15g as does 2/3 cup of organic vanilla almond granola. 

Before these last couple days, I didn't know how much sugar was "a lot". Now I do and I'm better equipped to plan my meals for the day. 

Monday, May 11, 2015

Day 64 - Feeling Better

Monday, 5/11/15, 9:19pm

I am feeling much better than I was this morning. First off, I ran 8k today which is almost double the longest I've previously gone. I burned over 700 calories!

Next, I came in way under my daily calories limit AND my daily sugar limit! The sugar limit was what my goal was in hopes that my sugar cravings would start to subside. I did have a Skinny Cow ice cream sandwich after dinner but only after checking my net calories and sugar for the day. Either way, I always suffer the cravings at night and in the morning. I am feeling great tonight which could be because I cut down on the sugar today or it could be because I ate that ice cream sandwich. Tomorrow morning will be the true test. I wake up every morning with awful cravings, almost like a drug addict but instead of craving drugs I crave sugar. It's that intense. I'm really hoping the cravings have died down tomorrow morning...we'll just have to see. 

I also got a tone of back logged work done which included getting caught up with invoicing ALL of my clients. 

Between the exercise accomplishment, the diet accomplishment, or the work accomplishment, I am going to bed tonight feeling so much better than I was this weekend and this morning. 

Day 64

Monday - May 11, 2015 - 7:56am

It's not even 8am and I've already consumed half of the sugar I'm allotted today. I woke up again with severe sugar cravings. Since I got rid of all (or so I thought) the "quick fix" food I was forced to make steel cut oatmeal for breakfast. The downside is that it takes about five minutes to make and another five minutes to cool down. The cravings were so strong I dug into some chocolate Teddy Gramhs that were in a bowl on the counter (my daughter got out yesterday). 

I have to find a better way of managing these sugar cravings. Getting rid of most of the sugary food has helped but now I'm turning to food I wouldn't generally eat. 

This morning I had an idea. I've read articles about sugar cravings and they said to try and wait them out, something that's easier said than done when in full craving mode. This morning I thought, what if I forced myself to wait fifteen minutes or so to see if the craving would in fact pass? I don't have a ton of confidence this will work but don't have a ton to lose at this point. 

The morning and late night cravings are the worst. I'm going to see if I can find some more articles today that can help. 

I'm still pretty bummed about my lack of weightloss. I honestly feel that i will not lose weight doing what I'm doing. I'm tempted to try a more drastic measure: Atkins, HCG, juice fast for two weeks... I try and constantly remind myself that this is just as much about health as it is about weightloss. It's hard to stay positive though when I'm still super tired on Thursday and Friday nights and am still stuck in the same rut. 

Sunday, May 10, 2015

Day 63 - Feeling Blah

Sunday, May 10, 2015, 9:30pm

It is day 63 and I definitely understand why my diets have always failed around this time. Don't worry, I have t fallen off the wagon but the lack of weight loss is really started to de-motivate me. It's so frustrating doing all this work and barely losing any weight. I'm also struggling financially at the moment and am really going to have to put everything I have into work over the next few weeks. That means no more gym days... Ugh. I always knew the true challenge would be when I faced a bump in the road that would change up my informal routine. It looks like the time has come, and of course it's right around day 60. 

I have basically given up ok the scale. Yesterday I also went way over my daily calories. I am still having hardcore sugar cravings and if I don't find a way of curbing them, they will always be the downfall of my weigh loss progress. At day 63 I shouldn't be struggling with sugar cravings this much. I think I just haven't cut nearly enough out of my diet yet. Between the Snackwell cookies, push-up pops, Special K cereal, and Skinny Cow ice cream sandwiches, I am still fully addicted to sugar, now I just healthier versions of it. The popups, Special K, and Snackwell cookies are gone (thank god) and I don't plan on buying anymore anytime soon. 

Tomorrow is a new day and a new week. My focus will continue being how I feel and not how much the scale shows. This weeks goal is to cut my daily sugar intake to stay within the limits of the MFP app. 

Happy Mother's Day. 

Xoxo

Thursday, May 7, 2015

Day 60 - Morning Check-In

Thursday, 5/7/15, 7:13am

Today is day 60 and while I've been looking forward to this day for a long time I am filled with mixed emotions. 

At this point I'm not sure if the new scale I bought is busted or if I really just gained 1.5 pounds this past week. I understand that weight can fluctuate but according to the scale I have only lost about four pounds in 60 days!! I have been diligently tracking my calories and entering them into my daily food journal using MFP and on top of that I have been exercising 3 to 5 times a week. At least once or twice a week I even do a three hour workout at the gym!! I'm seriously busting my butt so I'm really confused at why the scale is not budging. I lose a pound one week only to gain it back the following week. 

I hate to be a broken record, but last summer I lost 28 pounds in sixty days so these 4 pounds in the same amount of time seriously doesn't make sense. I understand that muscle weighs more than fat or that you can plateau for a week or two. But let's be honest... this has been going on for over a month now. This isn't caused by muscle weighing more than fat and isn't caused because of a plateau. I've been changing up my workouts, I've been increasing the intensity, I even went on a 9 mile hike two weeks ago...  What more can I do??

As much of a bummer as this is I'm not going to let it affect my progress. I made a decision two months ago to change in the way my kids and I were eating. This is not a decision I made lately and it is not something that I'm going to stop doing just because an annoying ass scale won't budge. All I can do at this point is to keep doing exactly what I've been doing and just hope that it pays off in the long run.

I always seem to fall apart after day 60 and I now kind of understand how that could happen. It's so easy to lose motivation or to be discouraged when you're not seeing the results that you think you earned.

I believe what is important is your mindset when you start your healthy lifestyle. If you go into it thinking that it's a diet, one you have to follow to lose weight and then can stop once the weight falls off, you are setting yourself up to fail. In the past I always saw a light at the end of the tunnel. Every pound I lost was not only getting me closer to my weight loss goal but getting me closer to the day I could go back to eating "normal". I would think I was in it for the long haul but in reality I couldn't wait to  go back to normal eating. Normal eating didn't mean eating donuts for breakfast every morning but it did mean having them once in a blue moon. It also meant having food with more fat, basically a less restrictive diet. But mostly I don't think I was looking forward to the day where I woulmdy have to keep track of EVERYTHING I ate. I wouldn't have o count calories. I wouldn't have to research 

Sunday, May 3, 2015

Day 56 - Morning Check-In

Sunday - May 3, 2015

Tomorrow is by 34th birthday and tonight my family and I are going out to dinner to celebrate. I haven't eaten out in over 56 days since starting eating healthy so I'm a little apprehensive about dinner. I am confident that I won't go overboard. The challenge will be finding a lowfat meal on the menu. To prepare, I'm going to see if I can find their menu online. That way, I can look up the nutrition content in some of their entrees to make sure I select a lowfat healthy choice at dinner tonight. It's safe to say that I'll probably be eating an entree consisting baked chicken breast since that's most likely to have the lowest fat content but we'll just have to see. 

I was planning on getting a sitter last night to go out dancing with my friend but I decided against it. Not only was I super tired from housecleaning topped off with a four hour run/hike but I realized I wasn't mentally prepared to drink alcohol yet. When I have dieted in the past I would be doing super great... My confidence would be through the roof and I would feel super sexy and ready for a night out in the town. It was always the icing on the cake, all of the hard work I had put in was paying off and I looked and felt great. I would go out with friends to celebrate some occasion (usually a birthday) and also to celebrate my weightloss. We would have some drinks, laugh, dance, have some more drinks, and laugh some more. Everything would be going great, that is until we left the bar ... I don't know about you but I always get super hungry after a night of drinking and I don't crave carrot sticks and apple slices. No, I crave greasy fat and salty carbs. This meant that a night of drinking was almost always capped off with a trip to Jack in the Box (the only fast food place open in my area). When I drink I find it almost impossible to say "no" to my vices. This means that I ALWAYS end up smoking (I quit six years ago) and binge eating on the fattiest, most unhealthy food imaginable. But it wouldn't end there. The next morning I would wake up SUPER hung over (I can't drink without getting hungover anymore). I would sleep half of the day (wake up early but take two to three naps throughout the day). I would be so tired and feel so crummy that I wouldn't have the energy to get up and make food. I always managed to snack on crackers and other lowfat food. I'd make the kids mac and cheese for lunch... And then around 6pm Id be starving and trying to figure out what to make for dinner. Did I really want to eat baked bones skinless chicken for the umpteenth time? I would ALWAYS and I mean ALWAYS order a pizza at this point. Pizza is my hungover food and I can't ever seem to get away form that. Mentally Id reason with myself that I didn't eat all day (except for s few crackers) so I'd be under my daily calories so it was fine. This was always the start of the end for me. 

So you see why I'm not ready for a night of drinking yet. Of course there's a chance that Id do okay. I may only have one or two drinks (which would make me go over my daily calories). And maybe I would opt for healthy snacks when I got home. And maybe I would not be super duper hung over so maybe it would be easier to make good choices the following day. But I'm not risking it. 

I looked back at older posts from 2009 and 2011 and what the both have in common is the fact that I would fall of the wagon soon after a night of drinking. Coincidence? I think not. 

In the past I wanted to be healthier but that was only about 1% of the reason I was trying to lose weight. These days it more 70% is about being healthy while 30% is about losing weight. Drinking alcohol, especially in excess is NOT healthy and never will be. Most importantly though, I feel like complete crap the day after I drink, even if I only have s glass or two of wine. Sometimes I can get away with having a glass of wine with dinner and not feel like complete crap the next day (like when my friend came over for dinner a few weeks ago) but other times I'm not so lucky. I'm sure I will drink alcohol at some point but the longer I can go without it the better prepared I can be when that day finally comes. 



Thursday, April 30, 2015

Day 53 - Morning Check-In

Thursday, 4/30/15, 6:30am

It's day 53 and this morning I woke up at 5:55am feeling great.  I haven't told anybody I am trying to lose weight so it was really nice when two people asked me this week if I had lost weight.  I have also noticed the changes.  At first I noticed the changes in my face but now I am seeing it all throughout my body especially my stomach.  Yesterday I was putting lotion on after getting out of the shower and I noticed how much smaller my stomach was feeling.  Don't get me wrong, I still have a ways to go, but it feels really good knowing that my hard work at the gym is paying off.

Yesterday I went on a morning run (as planned).  I usually run about 1.5 miles down Fifth Street in San Rafael and walk the 1.5 miles back.  Yesterday however I ran the 1.5 miles like normal but instead of walking back I ran back!!  It is great feeling my strength and endurance come back.  Fifty-three days ago I was feeling weak, fat, and out of shape.  Today I am feeling so much better both physically and mentally.

As I get closer to day 60 I keep reminding myself to stay focused.  The next thirty days will be the real challenge because I have never been able to continue a healthy lifestyle for longer than 68 days (I just had to look that up).  In 2011 I started a low-carb diet and lost twenty pounds in 68 days.  Last year (2014) I started eating a healthier lowfat diet (while counting calories) and I lost about twenty-five pounds in 60 days.  Both times I felt great, my confidence was soaring, I had loads of energy, and I was just feeling...happy.  But then I would hit a bump in the road (lost my job in 2011 and got sick in 2014) and I fell off the wagon.  The problem wasn't that I fell off the wagon, the problem was that I DIDN'T GET BACK UP!!  This time around I am DETERMINED not to let that happen.

My plan for today:
Go for a run (after dropping my kids off at school).  Come home and stretch/yoga for thirty minutes.  Eat a protein bar.  Do crunches and other ab exercises.  Take a shower.  Go to work.

I have skipped lunch two days in a row which made me way under my daily calorie limit (good and bad).  It's weird because I feel hungrier overall throughout the dinner and before and after dinner when I eat lunch.  When I skipped lunch these two days I didn't feel that hungry and didn't feel hungry at all at bedtime (when my cravings are usually at their highest).  The bottom line is, if I am going to exercise I have to eat lunch.

I truly believe the steel cut oatmeal is working.  I am feeling fuller longer.

I have to run...get my kids ready for school.  I have some exciting news about a new challenge I joined so I'll have to come on later to post.



Wednesday, April 29, 2015

Weekly Weigh-In #3

 - 1.6 pounds

Woo hoo! I'm stoked to finally see the numbers on the scale start going down. 


May 4, 2014: 180 lbs
June 30, 2014: 154.4 lbs

March 29, 2015: 164.4
April 15, 2015: 162.6
April 23, 2015: 159.2
April 29, 2015: 157.6

Tuesday, April 28, 2015

Day 51- Food Log Summary

Even without a workout I was still under my daily calories (probably because I skipped lunch again). Looks like the steel cut oatmeal is working! Let's just see if the scale agrees. 


Day 50- Food Log Summary

4/27/15

Was way under calories for today!!! That's because I skipped lunch and had a killer workout. 


Day 51 - Tuesday - 4/28/15

I am almost to day 60 which is exciting. I've made it this far countless times before but, for some reason, things have always started to unravel right around the 60 day mark. When I started eating healthier back in March I knew I wanted I wanted to finally make it to day 90. I have had many daily and weekly goals along the way but my main goal has been to make it 100 days. 

Today is Tuesday, the day of the week where I go to my client's early and leave late. This means that this is a "rest" day although not by choice. Today could be very stressful, we'll just have to see what my client has accomplished since I was last there. 

I was unable to invoice clients yesterday because I left my freaking scheduling book at home. Ugh! I'll try to get at least one or two invoices out today. 

It's 8:54am and I'm back at home from dropping off my kids at school. I have to get ready for work so I'm trying to hurry while writing this (so this post will probably seemed rushed). 

For breakfast today I had steel cut oatmeal again. I read an article about a Study that compared to group of people who ate oatmeal for breakfast and a group of people who ate oatmeal Square cereal for breakfast. It found that the group of people who ate actual oatmeal felt fuller longer throughout the day. I tried eating steel cut oatmeal for breakfast yesterday to see if that were in fact true. Sure enough I wasn't hungry until much later in the afternoon even though I had worked out for over three hours at the gym. I am trying it again today in hopes that I will have the same results. It would be nice to not have to snack in between breakfast and lunch so I could save those calories if needed later in the day.

For lunch today I'm having the usual: a lean cuisine meal.
For snacks I have a choice of fruit: apples, strawberries, raspberries, grapefruit, and pears (I also have oranges, bananas, and apricots but those are for my daughter and recipes). I also have the usual mini carrots. 

For dinner I bought a small free range chicken to roast. I'll serve it with a side of quinoa or brown rice, green peas, and fresh rolls (for my kids). 

Alright, gotta scoot...



Monday, April 27, 2015

Monday 4/27/15 - Afternoon Update

Okay so I just got done with a fabulous workout. It's 1:45pm which means I was exercising for about three hours! After my workout I went into the dressing room and pulled out my snack of strawberries and some new protein chips I bought at the gym. The chips had over 25g of protein and only about 120 calories so I figured they were a win-win. I bought a bag of salt and vinegar and a bag of barbecue. I was stoked that I could eat chips!...until I tasted them. The initial flavor is pretty good but the consistency and the after taste is awful 
I tried a few chips from both bags and gave up. I opted for a peanut butter and chocolate protein bar instead. 

My plan was to eat snack, take a shower, get dressed, and go to my office but as I was just finishing the last strawberry a woman who worked at the gym came in to notify us the showers were being closed and wouldn't open back up for an hour. That kind of put a kink in my plans. The good news is that my house is on the way to my office. I'll run home, shower, and head to the office. I can't make excuses, I HAVE to get some work done. Going back home will be challenging but if I can do a nine mile hike uphill with my kids and I can force myself to actually go to my office and get work done. It totally sucks though that it's like 80 degrees out. I want to go to the beach!! Oh well, maybe this weekend. :) 








Day 50 - Morning Check-In

Good morning world. I am feeling great this morning!! Yesterday I was a bit tired from that 9 mile hike on Saturday. Today is a different story. I feel energized and pumped to go to the gym. 

Yesterday I fell off the wagon a bit during the day. I started the day by eating Special K cereal and then around 11am ate an apple for a snack...so far so good. I then ate a Lean Cuisine pasta dish (still good) but then I fell off the wagon a bit. I started by snacking on these cinnamon sugar pretzels (so good) that are low in fat and pretty low in calories (20 pretzels equal 140 calories). I originally decided to eat 10 of them (half a serving) for about 70 calories... But they were so freaking good that I decided to have the second half of the serving, 10 more pretzels. A half hour later I was still pretty hungry so I decided to eat a cup of cereal, after all, I did just complete a nine hour hike the day before, I could afford the eat a few more calories than normal (at least that was what was going through my mind at the time).

Around 2pm I laid outside in my bathing suit (one piece of course) listening to music in my backyard. Eventually I came inside because my kids (who had eaten some snacks throughout the day) were hungry. I made them some mac and cheese and, once done, plopped down on the couch next to my seven year old to watch some cartoons with her on Netflix. Before long, I fell asleep. I woke up about thirty minutes later, are a second serving of pretzels, and fell back asleep. About an hour after that I woke up again and at some more pretzels, this time not even counting out servings anymore. 

My plan wasn't to eat half of the 10 ounce bag but that's exactly what I did. I kept eating and eating and eating, all the while convincing myself it wasn't that bad because I had burned so many calories the day before. I said to myself, "I had 500 calories left over yesterday so if I combine yesterday with today, I will probably be right at my limit." I started realizing my mistake about halfway through my binge episode. I started feeling like shit, physically and mentally. I realized all of the hard work I had put in the day before was wasted. All of the calories I burned I had just eaten in one sitting. I felt guilty, I felt ashamed, I felt like a failure, but I kept on eating. It was like the fat girl in me took over.

I ended up finishing off the entire bag. I wanted to immediately exercise to burn off the calories I just consumed but I couldn't because I didn't have anyone to watch my kids. I realized I would have to do several hours of cardio to burn off that bag of pretzels, something that would be impossible given the fact that it was now 4pm and I had house cleaning and other items that needed to be done. I was dying to exercise but couldn't. I then decided that maybe this wasn't a bad thing. Maybe this would be my first official challenge, having s binge episode and falling off the wagon. Would I let this one I stand defeat me or would I get back up and keep pushing?

I got off my butt, put my headphones in, and started doing some housework. It needed to be done and I needed to move around. While doing the dishes I danced around to the music which instantly made me feel better.

In the end, I wasn't that hungry in the evening thanks to the 900 calories worth of pretzels I ate so
I skipped dinner. I knew that the following day I would be able to go to the gym which would enable me to burn off some of the pretzels. I packed my gym bag before going to bed and felt better knowing that I would push myself hard at the gym the following morning. 

It's that morning now and I'm not sure if I should go to the gym now or after work. Let me explain. First, I want to go NOW. I am pumped and actually looking forward to getting some serious exercise. The only problem is that, if I really push myself at the gym (like I want) I will be pretty tired afterward. It's always extremely hard for me to get work done at my office after going to the gym, although I don't know why. Because of that I debated going after work. But, what if something comes up (like it always does) and I don't end up having time for the gym. I will be pissed. Okay, it's decided. Today is the only day this week I know for a fact I can go to the gym. I might be able to go Wednesday but won't know until after work. On Tuesday and Friday I have early morning clients which means not only no gym but no morning run either. That leaves today, possibly Wednesday, and Thursday (I don't have time for the gym on Thursday but do have time for a morning run). I can get caught up with work after the gym and later in the week if needed. 

The bottom line is, who knows how I'll feel later today. Right now I'm pumped and am stoked to go burn off some steam. Yay. I'm excited. 

I have to eat breakfast before I go. I'm back at home after dropping off the kids. It's 9:10am so I have to hurry. I just have to finish this bowl of steel cut oatmeal and my second cup of coffee and I'll be off. 


Sunday, April 26, 2015

Day 49 - Weekly Update

Sunday - 4/26/15

It has been about five days since my last post but that's not because I fell off the wagon, it's just because I've been extremely busy.  I was so excited that I dropped 3.4 pounds this week I used it as motivation to keep going strong.

Because I was so busy this week I was only able to make it to the gym on Monday. Tuesday was a day off because I had to be at work so early and didn't get off until 6:30pm.  Wednesday I had a client in the morning so I was planning on going to the gym afterward.  My appointment took longer than expected which meant I didn't have time for the gym.  Instead, I went on a run and tried out my new water bottle and my new wireless headphones (which I love!!).
On Thursday I went for a great run in the morning because I didn't have time to go to the gym before or after work.  Friday was another day off because I had a busy work day at my office.  I FINALLY got caught up with work.  And lastly, Saturday, I decided to take the kids on a hike on Mount Tam.

I had wanted to go for a nice long hike all week.  We've been hiking the previous two weekends but each of those was only about two miles long.  This weekend I wanted to go somewhere really far from society, somewhere really beautiful and quiet, and somewhere we could go for a 4-5 mile hike which included uphill portions to get better exercise.  I looked up some trails online before going but couldn't find one that showed the distance.  I decided to just head out and explore the trails once we were out there.

We left the house around noon.  We stopped at Bordenaves to get some fresh sandwich rolls for lunch.  We then stopped at United Market for some fresh fruit (apples, strawberries, and raspberries) and some deli turkey and cheese for our sandwiches.  We arrived at Muir Woods and started our hike around 1:00pm.  I bought a trail map and picked a trail that headed up to the top of the mountain.  Mount Tam is a huge mountain so I was pretty sure we wouldn't make it to the top but that didn't stop us from trying.

We hiked for about an hour and a half taking a break for snacks halfway during our trek up the mountain.  At about the three mile mark I checked the map and found what looked like a perfect trail that would lead the way back down the hill.  The kids were a little tired and wanted to go back down the way we had came.  I on the other hand, didn't want to double back and instead wanted to take a new trail down.  I decided to take the TCC Trail I found on the map, a trail that would cut across the mountain and lead us back down the other side of the creek.  The TCC Trail looked like it was around a half mile long which would give us a little bit longer of a hike back than just doubling back and heading down.



We started on the TCC Trail and kept going.  After about thirty minutes the kids started asking to stop for a snack break again.  I just wanted to get back to the main trail that would head back which I figured we would arrive at any second.  We kept going, and going, and going.  We finally ran into some people on the trail who I was able to ask about this "TCC Trail" we thought we were on.  According to them, we weren't even on the TCC Trail yet.  They said the trail was just around the corner though.  I assured the kids the TCC Trail was short and that we would be on our way back down soon.

We finally made it to the actual TCC trail and I was stoked to finally cut across and then be back on the main trail to head down.  I figured the half mile TCC trail would take us about 15-20 minutes to cut across.  After about 45 minutes though we still hadn't made our way to the main trail.  The kids at this point were getting really hungry so as soon as we came across a bench we took advantage of the opportunity and sat down for a rest break and a snack.

I didn't want to stop for too long so after ten minutes we packed the snacks up and headed on our way.  Another twenty minutes passed and we were STILL on this TCC Trail.  At this point I was getting really stressed out.  I pulled out my phone and kept checking for a signal.  Finally, a signal came up and I was able to pull an actual trail map up.  I saw that we were on the TCC Trail and that we were getting closer to the main trail.  What I also saw was the the TCC Trail wasn't a half mile short cut but instead a THREE MILE trek.  At this point it was too late to turn around so we had no choice but to keep going.

In the end, the 4-5 mile hike I had planned on going turned out to be a 9 mile hike!!!!  I couldn't believe my 13 year old and my 7 year old hiked for 9 miles.  They are freaking rock stars and I super proud of them.

Today is Sunday and the kids and I are a little pooped.  I am not sure what we'll do today, my plan is to just play it by ear.  If it's warm enough we may go to the pool, otherwise I'll probably just grab a book and some magazines and go lay out in the sun in my backyard.

Tomorrow (Monday) I don't have any clients scheduled and instead plan on being at my office.  This is great because I can go to the gym!  I think I'll go to the office early and go to the gym in the afternoon but we'll see how that goes.

For now, I just want to enjoy the rest of the weekend with my beautiful amazing kids.



Thursday, April 23, 2015

Weekly Weigh-In -#2

- 3.4 pounds!!!!












I am super stoked to finally see that darn scale go down and to finally be back in the 150's.

Previous Weigh-Ins:

May 4, 2014: 180 lbs
June 30, 2014: 154.4 lbs

March 29, 2015: 164.4
April 15, 2015: 162.6
April 23, 2015: 159.2

(I forgot to weigh myself on Wednesday so I had to weigh myself today (Thursday) instead.

Tuesday, April 21, 2015

Day 44 - Morning Check-In

4/21/15

It's 6:26am on Tuesday morning. I'm sitting on the edge of my bed drinking coffee and updated my blog. I have to wake my older daughter up in just a few minutes to take a shower. 

Today is one of the days I work all day so there is no chance I'll make it to the gym. I may have time to do yoga but I'm very tight on time this morning so we'll just have to see. Since I get off work at 6:30pm I won't have time to stop at the grocery store. I have some frozen ground beef from Trader Joe's that I'll leave in the counter to defrost while I'm at work. 

Today's Meal Plan:

Breakfast:
3/4 cup of Special K
1/2-1 Grapefruit
Coffee

Lunch:
Three Cheese Ziti

Snacks:
14 Carrots
Eggplant hummus
30 Green grapes

Dinner:
Tacos w/ 96% ground beef
3 Organic corn tortillas
1/8 cup 2% shredded jack/cheddar
1 tbsp Canola oil (to cook tortillas in)


I haven't eaten anything yet today but after entering this all into MFP I have only 28 calories remaining which is right where I want to be. 



Daily Goals - Tuesday 4/21/15

Monday (yesterday's) goal: Go to the gym. Don't go over daily calorie limit. 

Monday Summary: I went to the gym for about three hours. I've been doing an hour of the elliptical which is burning 600 calories and I think I may be overdoing it because when I leave I am exhausted. I realize now that I should probably go to the gym after work instead of before, at least if I want to get any work done. 

I was under my calorie goal 244 calories! I am allowed 1200 but burned off 596 calories (according to the FitBit). This left me with a total of 1796 calories that I could consume yesterday. I ate 1552 which left me with 244. 

I ate more than usual because I burned a ton of calories at the gym. I also didn't realize that those subway sandwiches have around 350 calories. My microwave meals have less and fill me up longer so I may try one of those after going to the gym next time. 

For snacks I ate: 8 pretzel nibs (before my workout), 30 grapes (after my workout), a bowl of Special K cereal (about an hour after eating the Subway sandwich because I was still hungry), 4 Tootsierolls (an hour after the cereal). 

For dinner I cooked sirloin steak, brown rice, and green peas. The steak was so good I ate around 6-8 ounces. I at so much steak I barely had room for peas and zero room for rice. I was fine with that since my body obviously needed protein. The only issue is that I didn't think about how much fat was in the steak. I am normally okay eating it (while taking the Alli) because it's such a leav cut of meat. But I also always eat around 4-6 ounces which is a lot less than I ate last night. So far I feel fine. Let's just hope it stays that way. 
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Tuesday (today's) Goal: A FitBit friend invited me on a challenge today to hit 10k steps today so that is today's goal.

Since I'm working at a client's in Lucas Valley all day (10am-6:30pm) I knew I wouldn't be able to exercise today. It will be extremely hard to hit 10k steps today but if I'm creative I might be able to do it. This way, I'll get in some exercise. :)


Monday, April 20, 2015

Daily Goals - Monday 4/20/15

Monday (today's) goal: Go to the gym. Don't go over daily calorie limit. 

Day 43- Morning Check-In

I have to make this quick because I'm about to head to the gym...

I am so excited. I ordered two new exercise accessories and one of the came this weekend (it was delivered to my mom's house and I picked it up this morning). It's a new handheld water bottle to take on my runs! I bought the one that has a pouch to carry my phone and keys. 


The other item that hasn't come yet is a set of wireless headphones. I als bought some new batteries for my FitBit because it is about to die. I hope both come today. 

Breakfast:
Special K cereal
Coffee

Gym snack:
Grapes
Carrots

Lunch Plan:
Subway sandwich (turkey)

Snack:
Piece of fruit
Sourdough pretzels nibs (16)

Dinner:
Tacos or steak (have to go grocery shopping at Safeway and Trader Joe's after work today)



Sugar Cravings Score

I gave in last night and had some candy. I ate 9 Starburst Jellybeans and 1 long/skinny Tootsie Roll. There were five or six more Tootsie Rolls and the same number of jelly bean boxes. I was somehow able to rationalize eating all of the Tootsie Rolls, after all, I was sure I was under my daily calorie intake for the day. But then I remembered my daily goal to be under my calories for the day so I decided to pop on to My Fitness Pal to check where I was at.  After entering the first candy (the small box of jelly beans) a reminder popped up on MFP saying "Yoar goal is to stay under 50g of sugar for the day..." This basically meant that I had already gone over my sugar allowance for the day and I hadn't entered the Tootsie Roll yet. I looked through my journal and was reminded that I had eaten four marshmallows in between lunch and dinner.  I decided that Id had enough sweets for the day and opted for a bowl of Special K cereal instead. 

In the end, I lost a point by having candy but gained a point by only having two small pieces. 

Score: Me-2; Sugar-1

Sunday, April 19, 2015

Found- Candy Stash #4


Clever girl. I thought I ate all of these. I guess I was wrong. I barely had time to take a picture before she snatched this box away from me. This is one of those boxes that looks like a book. It was on my bookshelf and I thought it was empty. If it wasn't for my cleaning project today I would have never found this. Lol.
 

Me-1; Sugar Cravings-0

While cleaning and reorganizing furniture I found some of the Easter candy my younger daughter hid (on my instructions).  She hid candy all around the house and I keep finding it.  I bought the kids candy I knew I wouldn't eat (mainly candy high in fat like chocolate which is also their favorite) BUT their father came over on Easter morning with two HUGE bags of candy: Tootsie roll bag (which I ate a lot of) and a Skittles/Starburst bag... F@CK.  I knew I wouldn't be able to resist from eating (ALL OF) the candy so I asked my younger daughter to hide the candy (this was of course after I ate almost all of the tootsie roll candies).  Instead of hiding the candy in one spot, she split the candy into several stashes and hid the stashes throughout the house.  I have stumbled across two or three of the stashes and I am sure there all several more I haven't found yet.  

This brings us to today... While getting ready to move some shelves, I came across a Starburst/Skittles stash.  The candy looked SOOOOOOO good.  My mouth literally started to water.  My kids saw what I had found and asked for a couple pieces themselves.  After doling those out there were about five pieces remaining.  I cannot explain how tempted I was to eat them.  Before I scarfed down a handful of calorie ridden candies I quickly gave them to my seven year old begging her to "hide the candy from Mommy"...pathetic I know.  Of course the sugar cravings didn't die down and were getting stronger by the second.  My brain quickly compromised and decided I could have a sherbet push-up pop BUT somehow my rational brain kicked in and said "NO! STICK WITH THE PLAN!"  I actually listened to the rational side (shocking I know) and ate a small Gala apple instead.  I am super proud of myself.

For those of you who aren't sugar addicts or binge eaters, you probably think I sound ridiculous.  For those in the same boat as me, I am sure you know exactly what I was going through and how hard that was to turn down candy especially candy in the palm of my hand.  *High fives* to all of my fellow sugar addicts.  

Score: 
Me-1; Sugar-0.

Day 42 - Morning Check-In

As I mentioned in my post last night, I have a ton of stuff to do today so I will have to make this short.  My goal today is the same as it was yesterday (to hit 10k steps on Fitbit) but I added a secondary goal which is to win the Fitbit Weekend Warrior challenge I am playing with two of my Fitbit friends.  Last night I was in the lead but now Christine has taken the lead because I have had a very slow start to my morning.  It is time to kick things into gear.

It's 10:30am and I am drinking my second cup of coffee while I sit at the kitchen table writing this post on my laptop.  I ate breakfast and had my first cup of coffee a couple hours ago (at 8:00am).  Since waking up, I just lounged in bed for a little while with my younger daughter watching Bob's Burgers on Netflix on the iPad.  I am so lazy in the mornings, I hate it.  Breakfast consisted of the usual Special K Fruit & Yogurt cereal.  Here is my meal plan for the rest of the day:

Snack:
Fruit (strawberries, apple, or grapes)

Lunch:
Thai Chicken Spring Rolls from Lean Cuisine (super delicious)


Snack:
Carrots w/ eggplant humus from Trader Joe's (also super delicious).  


Dinner:
Baked chicken, brown rice, green peas (or other green veggie).  Brown rice takes 45 minutes to cook on the stove which was making it hard to have dinner before 8:00pm during the work week.  A week or two ago I was at Trader Joe's and I stumbled across this frozen Organic Brown Rice which is delicious.  I couldn't even tell the difference between this and my normal steamed rice.  This box comes with three packs of rice.  All you have to do is pop a pack in the microwave for 3 minutes and voila! you have rice.


Dessert:
2 Fig Newton cookies 


On a side note, I have been sticking closely to my meal plan from last year in the hopes that I will lose weight quicker.  I also know from experience that it's good to switch things up.  As soon as you get bored with your food you will start to dislike what you are eating and then it's just a matter of time before you start eating unhealthy again.  

The only part of my previous meal plan that I am missing is the dessert: Snack Wells Devil Food cookies.  Safeway doesn't sell them anymore and I am sure Trader Joe's and Whole Foods don't sell them so I am not sure what to do.  I will look online and see what I find.  I bet they sell them at Target which I need to go to anyway to get my younger daughter some new leggings.

That's all for now.  I'll check back in later if I have time.

Daily Goals - Sunday 4/19/15

Monday's Goal:  Stop eating dessert - FAIL

Tuesday's Goal:  Use My Fitness Pal to keep food and exercise journal everyday. 

Wednesday's Goal:  Start doing weekly weigh-ins again every Wednesday. 

Thursday's Goal:  Join a 30-day challenge on My Fitness Pal - FAIL (couldn't find)


Friday's Goal: Get at least 30 minutes of exercise


Saturday's Goal: Hit 10k steps on my FitBit. 


Sunday (today's) Goal: Hit 10k steps and win Weekend Warrior Fitbit challenge.



Saturday, April 18, 2015

4/18/15 Evening Check-In- Day #41

It's 11:15pm and I have to get to bed so I'll have to make this quick.

First, I am happy to say that I completed my goal for the day and have taken 11,857 steps which surpasses my 10k goal.  I am also happy to report that I cleaned out my car (finally).  It took a couple hours but I am so happy it's done.  By 6pm I had only walked 2,500 steps so I decided to take the kids on the walk I did yesterday and they LOVED it.  If I can wake up early enough tomorrow I want to take them to Mt Tam for a real hike.

There is a lot to do tomorrow and not enough time:

-Go for a hike
-Go to local farmer's market (9am-1pm)
-Finish housework (priority because we're having company at 4pm)
-Laundry
-Catch up on emails
-Do at least two hours of work (getting seriously behind)
-Grocery store (dinner for tomorrow night & other items)
-Lemonade stand (promised my youngest we would do this weekend)

So, looking at all of the items for tomorrow it seems pretty clear that a hike is out.  It also seems pretty clear that making it to farmer's market might be out.  I need to do housework and laundry from 9am-12pm, go to grocery store, go home to make lemonade and drop off groceries, stop by my mom's to  pick up card table, lemonade stand from 2pm-4pm, and make it home by 4:30pm when my friend and her daughter are coming over.  I agreed to babysit the daughter for the night so my friend could go to a concert with her boyfriend.  Since she will be dropping off her daughter's car seat I should be able to run errands after 4:30pm.  I guess I'll just have to see how tomorrow goes.

Lastly, I was under my calorie intake by 100 calories but only because I burned over 400 calories walking.  I ate 1500 and burned 400 leaving a net of 1,100.  According to my Fitbit I would have to have eaten under 1,100 for the day (not including the exercise) so I am over by 400 calories.  I don't see how that would be possible though since that would practically be starving myself so I am going to stick with the recommendations from My Fitness Pal.  I should be happy I am under my daily calories , that I walked over 10k steps, and that I got a major item (cleaning car) crossed off my to-do list.  All in all, today was a good day.

Going to bed now...

xoxo

P.S.  I completed my 30-day plank challenge today AND I am in the lead on the Weekend Warrior Fitbit challenge.  I made a couple friends on the Fitbit website and I challenged them to this weekend challenge.  I was losing until I went on that walk with my kids and now I am in the lead!

Daily Goals - Saturday 4/18/15

Monday's Goal:  Stop eating dessert - FAIL

Tuesday's Goal:  Use My Fitness Pal to keep food and exercise journal everyday. 

Wednesday's Goal:  Start doing weekly weigh-ins again every Wednesday. 

Thursday's Goal:  Join a 30-day challenge on My Fitness Pal - FAIL (couldn't find)

Friday's Goal: Get at least 30 minutes of exercise

Saturday (today's) Goal: Hit 10k steps on my FitBit. -This goal is not going to be easy. Today is an insanely busy day but I am determined to get the most use out of this little bugger as I can. 

Friday, April 17, 2015

Day 40 - Evening Check-In

So today didn't exactly go as planned.  To start, not only did I not go to the gym, I also didn't get ANY work done.  UGH!  That means that I will have to do it this weekend which I am not looking forward to at all.

The good news is that I managed to get some exercise today.  After my mom picked up the kids today at 2:00pm I spent an hour and a half watching movie trailers online.  It didn't feel like an hour and a half but before I knew it, it was already 3:30pm and getting later by the second.  I thought about going to my office as planned but by the time I showered and got ready it would be after 4:00pm and pretty much pointless.  I kept debating what to do and before I knew it, it was too late to do either (gym or work).  I started to get depressed and stressed out and realized that I needed to get some fresh air.  It was too warm out for a run and I didn't have enough time to drive somewhere so I decided to just throw on some gym clothes and go for a walk.  Instead of walking downtown or towards the mall I ended up turning up a side street to get a better exercise by walking uphill.  After twenty minutes of walking the street dead-ended as expected.  What I didn't realize though was that there was a dirt trail at the top of the hill I had just walked up.  I could see a water tower from where I was standing and figured that was what the dirt road was for.  The dirt road turned out to be over a mile long and left me on the other side of the hill.

It took a while to get to the top of the hill but when I did it was worth it.  There were some great views of San Rafael.





The dirt path I found kept going and going. It was a great chance to try out my newly found Fitbit.  It is 9:13pm and I am at 7,453 steps for the day.  I was really hoping to hit 10,000 but didn't have time since my kids were being dropped off at 6:30pm.


I am very happy today is Friday but am a little stressed by home much stuff I have to do this weekend.  Since I didn't work today I have to make it up tomorrow.  I also promised my younger daughter we could have a lemonade stand this weekend and go on a hike or something.  I forgot that I made plans with a girl friend of mine tomorrow and I totally forgot that I agreed to babysit my other friend's kids on Sunday night.  I also have to manage to clean out my car and finish my organization project.  Ugh.  I read on a weight loss blog today that cleanliness is a key to weight loss and I believe it.  This journey is not just about losing weight, it's about being healthy and purging everything toxic from your life.  I broke up with my boy friend of nine years (my kid's father) which was step one.  Step two was to find an awesome house (albeit a small rented one bedroom) for my girls and myself.  Step three was to start eating healthier.  Step four was to start yoga and to meditate for peace of mind.  Step five is to finish organizing the new small house.

This whole process is actually kind of fun.  I am happy I made the change.  I just have to keep taking it one day at a time.




Look What I Found!!

While organizing some drawers look what I found!

My old FitBit!!  I am so excited! The clip portion broke off but I got it to stick back on for now. If anything I can just take it out of the clip pouch and put it in my pocket (if wearing jeans). 
I am so excited. I'm definitely using this today. I'm mostly happy that I don't have to spend $125 buying another pedometer. I even added one in my Amazon shopping cart yesterday. 


Even if I did order one it would take a few days to get and now that I found mine, I can start using it right away. Yay!

Day #2- Plank Challenge

Even though the plank challenge was to do twenty seconds of the plank, I decided to do thirty.  I feel like I may not be doing it right since it seems really easy.  If I hold my breath it gets harder and I can feel my abs working but when I breath normally I don't really feel anything.

I looked up some videos to see if I was doing it right.  This was one of my faves.  I tried the plank again and finally felt my ab muscles working.  I think I wasn't straight enough.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pSHjTRCQxIw

Friday 4/17/15 - Day 40

I know I wasn't going to count days but I am glad that I decided to start this morning.  I looked back through my notes and saw that I started taking Alli (and therefore eating healthier) on March 9th, 2015.  The reason I am glad that I did this is because now I can see that I am only on day 40.  Up until this point I had assumed I had been eating healthier for two months.  Last year I had lost 25 lbs in two months (60 days).  I was a little discouraged that I had only lost a couple pounds in the same amount of time, but now I can see I still have twenty days to go before I hit the sixty day mark.

Breakfast today:
Okay, I overdid it.  I bought a new cereal at the store yesterday: Post Honey Graham "Oh's" cereal, and BOY did I overdo it.  First, I fell asleep on the couch last night around 9pm.  I woke up around 9:45pm to get the kids ready for bed.  The reason I fell asleep was, well because I was tired, but mainly because I was having a really strong craving for sugary foods.  I took a cat nap in hopes that the cravings would die down but, when I awoke at 9:45pm, they were ten times as strong.  I poured a HUGE bowl of the Oh's cereal and then poured SECONDS.

This morning I poured another huge bowl and now the 10.5 ounce box is almost gone.  I am happy the box is almost empty since this is obviously a food I can't control myself around... Another one to cross of my list of "safe" foods I can eat.

Lunch:
I am eating a Three Cheese Ziti from Lean Cuisine.  This is what I had for lunch practically every day last year.

Dinner Plan:
Barbecued pulled pork (which is cooking in the slow cooker right now) on hamburger buns, side of some green veggie (probably peas).


My mom is picking up the kids in a half hour.  I have two choices: 1) Go to my office and do some much needed work or 2) Go to the gym.  I would much rather go to the gym but I can't keep putting off work.  I have no choice but to go to the office....UGH.  If I hurry I may have time to go to the gym afterward, but I doubt that will happen.  I have so much work to get caught up on.

Before I do anything I have to get the kids ready and I want to finish a little bit of this organizational project I'm working on at home.