Saturday, May 23, 2015

Day 76 - Day Four of Juicing

Saturday, May 23, 2015, 3:28pm

Today I ate a couple handfuls of my seven year old's Chocolate Teddy Grahm Crackers for breakfast. I was having the usual morning sugar craving and I somehow thought I would be able to only eat a few of the small teddys but ended up eating a few handfuls. Ugh. 

It's 3:30pm and instead of having a traditional lunch, I had my first juice of the day. I wanted something packed with nutrients, something with both kale and cucumber, so I chose to have the Healthy Green Juice again (the juice I had on day one). I must be getting used to these juices because they are getting much easier to drink. 

I had planned on having a small Southwest Chicken Salad for lunch but it's getting so late I may just wait and have that for dinner. 

I am feeling a bit antsy. I could do some housework but am really not in the mood. I really feel like going on a walk. My kids are eating lunch right now...maybe when they're done I can convince them to go for s walk or something. Either way, the little one would have to go if I went since she is only seven and can't be left home by herself. Her sister is not old enough to babysit her yet. Even though my older daughter is thirteen, she and her sister still fight/argue quite a bit so I would not feel comfortable having her babysit uet, even if it's just for a few minutes to run to the store. Someday she'll be able to watch her sister but not today. 

The little one likes geocaching so we may go to that for a bit. The weather app on my iPhone shows that it's 61 degrees right now so we'll probably need to dress warm since it will only get cooler as the day progresses. 

As far as the juicing goes, I haven't notice any significant changes yet. My skin is the same, my energy levels may have  improved a little but it's hard to tell, overall I haven't really noticed anything besides helping with the normal hunger pangs. I've replaced my mid morning snack with the juice (I used to have an apple or something similar in between breakfast and lunch) so I'm not really eating less calories per day. Actually... The more I think about it I realize the juices probably have reduced my daily calorie intake. I was able to skip lunch on Wednesday and Friday (and possibly also today). On Wednesday I brought lunch with me but didn't want to go nextdoor to heat it up (I have two clients right next to each other and the one I was at doesn't have a kitchen or microwave). I ended up snacking on some organized granola that I added some chia seeds to. 

On Friday I just didn't have time to stop for lunch. I was at my office until 2pm. I the ran over to meet with a new client which lasted until 3:45pm. I then had to pick up my kids to take them to their 4:30pm dentist appointment. By the time we were done it was a little after 5:00pm and I still had to go to the grocery store (it's amazing how much fruit and veggies I am going through since using the juicer). 

I would never advocated for skipping meals but what I've noticed is that I don't  really need a meal after after a juice. Since I've been having my juice around 11am every day when lunch time comes around I'm just not that hungry. So instead of eating a typical 300 calorie lunch I find that I only need a light snack. I bring a piece of fruit with me every day along with a bag of carrots. Sometimes I throw in something else, like an extra piece of fruit, or some granola but the fruit and carrots always stay the same. 

The other change that I have made is how I eat my food. When I used to eat dinner I would always start with the meat then move on to the carb/starch and lastly move to the veggy. Now, I start with my veggy. Once all of my veggies are eaten up I move to my protein. Once the protein is gone if I have any room left I move onto the carb (brown rice or quinoa). 

One of documentaries I watched taught about the importance of filling up on veggies and fruit. The guy being interviewed said "Instead of thinking 'I want it but I can't have it' say to yourself 'I can have it but don't want it'". He said that he had been overweight for years and had tried dieting more times than he could count. Every time he would basically do the same thing. He would go to the grocery store on the weekend to stock up on healthy food to start his diet the coming Monday. On Monday morning, by 11am he would always feel u get and deprived. Looking back, what he finds intersting is that, when he wasn't dieting, he could sometimes go until 1pm without eating or even thinking about food. But when he dieted, he had that "deprived" mentality and therefore tended to think about food ALL OF THE TIME. I have had the same issue. 

The same guy explained how important it is to not feel deprived. It's simple, when you can't have something you tend to want it more. So instead of cutting the food out of your diet, don't. Just add ten times more vegetable and fruit to your diet and always eat those first. By doing this, you're still "allowed" to eat certain foods but chances are, you'll be so full of healthy food, you won't have much room for the nonhealthy food. 

All of these tips I think about often. It's a little different for me since I really do think I'm an actual sugar addict. For me it's simple: If I can't control myself around a certain food I can't eat it. I'm hoping that changes some day but, from what I know about addiction, it sounds like this will be something I'll have to be mindful of for the rest of my life. Whatever it takes to be healthy... 

Day 75 - Day Three of Juicing

Today I used another recipe from www.RebootWithJoe.com. This one was called "Radiant Antioxi-Orange Juice". The ingredients are:

- 2 small oranges (I used 2 med/large oranges)
- 3 carrots (I used 5 small/medium carrots)
- 1-2 cucumbers (I used 1)
- 1 yellow bell pepper
- 1inch piece of ginger 

This juice wasn't that bad, especially compared the yesterday's beet/kale juice.  I will definitely make this one again. I will probably add a second cucumber next time and maybe a leaf or two of kale to get some added nutrients. 

Day 74 - Day Two of Juicing

This morning I made my second juice. I found this recipe on www.RebootWithJoe.com and it's called "Simple Juice, Endless Health Benefits" (kind of a weird/long name...). This juice contains:

- 6-8 kale leaves (I used 8)
- 1 green apple
- 2 lemons
- 2 small or 1 medium beet (I used 1 medium beet)

This recipe was absolutely disgusting. I was sure it had amazing health benefits though so I basically plugged my nose and forced it down. It was so gross. I tried using a large swig of mouthwash afterward to rid my mouth of the taste which helped but there was still a hint of the nasty bitter after taste. This juice was so gross I doubt I will make it again. 


Thursday, May 21, 2015

Day 74 - Finally Lost Some Pounds!

Thursday, 5/21/15, 8:13am

This morning I was thinking... Am I going to weight the same 158-159 pounds in a month, two months, six months...? It's frustrating when you are really doing all you can do but your weight isn't dropping. At that point your only two choices are to: 1) Give up and gain all te weight back and continue gaining weight; or 2) Keep doing what you're doing and just see what happens. Since eating unhealthy is just not an option anymore (most of the food I wouldn't eat now even if I could) my only really choice has been to keep going. 

These thoughts led to another question: If I weigh myself every day (like I have in the past) what would I see? Would I see my weigh go up one day and down the next or would my weight just stay the same? In the past when I weighed myself daily I would see the scale go up a few ounces one day and then down a few plus an ounce or two the followif day. Instead of logging the constant flucuations I would only log my weight when it had dropped below my previous recorded weight. This let me see how my weight was going down over the course of a week and month. 

I curiously stepped on the scale this morning wondering if I had:
a) Gained weight 
b) Was at the same weight
c) Lost an ounce or two

I was ecstatic when I saw that I had lost over 3 pounds!!!  My weight is now 155.0 pounds. 

Finally!!!

Day 73 - Day One of Juicing

Tuesday, 5/21/15

Today I made my first juice with my new juicer. The juice contained:

1/2 of a cucumber 
1 bale of kale (about 6 leaves)
3 stalks of celery
1 apple
1/2 of a lemon

The juice wasn't great but at least it wasn't that strong. The main problem was all of the disgusting pulp in the second half of the bottle. I had brought the juice with me to a client's and didn't have anything to strain it with.  I tried using a papertowel without much luck. I drank as much as I could stomach (about 3/4 of the total batch) and then threw the rest out. 

I didn't notice any significant changes in my body from having the juice (not that I would from just two glasses in one day) but I wasn't nearly as hungry throughout the day. 

Tuesday, May 19, 2015

Day 72 - Tuesday

Tuesday, 5/19/15, 8:18am

I thought Monday's were the worst but in reality Tuesday's are really the worst. That's because I have to be at my client's by 10am which leaves zero time to exercise in the morning before work. It also means that I'll be getting off work at 6:15pm and won't get home until 7:00-7:30pm. 

This morning is one of those mornings where I am anxious to go for a run. My ankles are pretty sore though so maybe it's best that I don't run today. Instead I'll try doing some cardio at home (planks, ice skaters, mountain climbers, etc...). 

I weighed myself on my mom's scale to see if my scale was broken. It isn't. I really do weigh about 159. Day 72 of eating a healthy 1200/day calorie diet combined with 4-7 days of exercise per week and I have lost zero pounds. I have gone down two belt sizes but am flabbergasted as to how I still weigh almost 160 pounds. I started taking my thyroid medication again and doubled the dose. Without health insurance I have to try and self diagnose these issues. It's so frustrating that I have to wait until January 2016 to be able to sign up for insurance.  

Monday, May 18, 2015

Monday- Weigh-In

I made the mistake of weighing myself this morning. The only reason I did was because of the diet bet I'm doing. I have a month (April 27-May 27) to lose 4% of my body weight. Since my starting weight was 159.0 pounds I have to lose about 6.4 pounds to win. 

You have to weigh yourself in the beginning and then once in the middle (which I did today). If you don't, you'll be disqualified because they don't want people trying to lose all of the weight the last few days of the bet. They want people to try losing weight the healthy way. 

If I didn't "have" to weigh myself I wouldn't have. Either way, I am regretting that I did. I think I'm going to bow out of this diet bet to save my sanity. I was feeling great this morning until I got on that darn scale. I hadn't weighed myself in a couple weeks so I was excited to see if I had lost some weight (at least a pound or two)...But no... I didn't lose ANY weight these past few weeks. I weigh EXACTLY THE SAME as I did three weeks ago. Ugh. Actually, I weight exacky the same as I did six weeks ago!! 158.6. WTF. 

Anyway, not going to let it ruin my day. F@ck the scale, I'm going on a run. 

Day 71 - Monday

Monday, 5/18/15, 8:03am

Weekend Update

The weekends always seem to go by so fast. We had a nice weekend. On Saturday my younger daughter had a play date with her BFFs (twin girls) and my brother came by for a little while. On Sunday I took the girls to a local tennis court to play some tennis. My older daughter was getting sick of hiking every weekend. When I asked her what outdoor activities she liked she suggested tennis. Thankfully my mom had three tennis rackets (two adult and one kids) that we could borrow. 

After tennis we stopped at the grocery store and then came home to straighten up the house before my mom arrived for dinner. I roasted a chicken with a side of gravy (freakin awesome), brown rice, and broccoli. It was delicious. We had some Pinot white wine with dinner that topped everything off perfectly. I normally don't drink but it was a really nice evening, and it was the first time we had my mom over for dinner at the new house. 

My favorite part of the weekend was definitely Sunday. I had so much fun playing tennis with my kids but, more importantly, they had a blast playing tennis. My younger daughter and I played against my older daughter and every time we scored a point we had to do a little dance which got hilarious. 

Dinner with my mom was also really nice. All in all it was a very good weekend. 

Saturday, May 16, 2015

Day 69 - Saturday 5/16/16

Saturday, 5/16/15, 5:00pm

I was so unbelievable tired when I woke up this morning. I'm not sure if it was all of the running I did this past week or what but I was super groggy and tired when I woke up today. Thankfully my younger daughter had some friends coming over at noon for a play date so I had to force myself (and my kids) to get up and do some much needed housework. 

I have come to realize the importance of getting up and moving around in the morning, after coffee of course. If I stay in bed and watch an episode or two of TV on Netflix on my iPad I find myself feeling lazy and I lack motivation to get up and do anything the rest of the day. If I get up and do yoga, for for a run, of do housework, I find that I am energized and feel good throughout the day. All it really takes is moving around for an hour or so. On mornings like today it's very hard to get up and do much of anything unless I'm forced to (like today). That is why I like to make plans between 11am and noon on Saturday. Then on Sunday I like to plan a fun activity outdoors for the kid's and I. The last couple of weeks we've been hiking, something my older daughter is quite sick of. She mentioned an interest in tennis though so I've decided to get a couple tennis rackets so we can start playing tennis on the weekends. I would love to get a bike to go riding with my kids but they are pretty expensive. 

The friends got picked up about twenty minutes ago. At the same time my brother stopped by to drop off something he had bought for my older daughter. I am looking around my messy house wondering why I even bothered cleaning BEFORE the seven year olds came over. Lol. 

I'm not sure what we'll do tomorrow but I'm sure I'll think of something. 

Friday, May 15, 2015

Day 66 - Recap

Wednesday 5/13/15

To recap today, I went on a 10k run!!, worked for a few hours, came home and made...you guessed it...tacos! I know I swore off tacos but I am on a tight budget and I had left overs from last night. This time, instead of frying up eight mini corn tortillas in loads of oil and stuffing them with a tiny bit of meat, I cooked two regular size corn tortilla with 1/4 tablespoon oil for each. I then filled the two tortillas with loads of 96% fat free taco meat. They were still delicious and a less than half of the calories of last nights tacos. 

My ankles are acting up again from running. I'm not exactly sure why. A couple years ago it was the top of my feet and ankles that hurt. This time it's the inside side of my ankles. My right is also a bit sore, it actually almost feels numb... It's a weird sensation. 

Today's run was great but left me feeling tired and hungry for most of the day. I've come to realize that a 30 minute run is energizing but anything over 45-50 minutes is tiring. It's still worth it though. All of my hard work will pay off when I cross my first full marathon finish line. :)

Wednesday, May 13, 2015

Day 66 - No More Taco Nights

Wednesday, 5/13/15, 7:58am

Last night when I finished updating my food journal in MFP I realized that I had forgotten to include an ingredient from dinner. I cook the corn tortillas in a pan of canola oil. I have no idea how much oil soaks into the tortillas but I assumed it was at least a tablespoon. Once that was entered I noticed that the tacos I had for dinner contained over 600 calories, more than half of my daily calories. 

I was hungry for most of the day yesterday and ate only two snacks. I was SURE I was going to come in way under my daily calorie limit. I was shocked that I ended up almost going over. I think this may be the key to why I haven't lost weight. 

This week I am really going back to basics. First, i decided to keep a close eye on the amount of sugar I consume going forward to insure I don't go over my daily limit. Next, I decided to really track every single morsel of what I eat or drink. I thought I was doing this before but I was so focused on not feeling like I was dieting I think I may have made some mistakes. I am motivated again like I was in the beginning and it feels good. 

Instead of using weightloss to motivate me to exercise I am using the pending half marathon I'm committed to doing to motivate me. If I wanted to lose weight faster I would go to the gym. But its exhilarating pushing myself to run farther and farther each day. I never though I would be able to run 5k. On Monday I ran 8k! 



Tuesday, May 12, 2015

Day 65 - Cravings Subsiding?

Tuesday, 5/12/15, 6:58am

This morning I woke up craving sugar, but I do think the intensity of the craving was less than it usually is. Today I am sticking with the plan: eat less sugar. 

According to MFP I am allowed 74 grams of sugar a day.  I went through my food log to check to see if I was going over the limit. I only checked about a week back and was surprised that I only went over my sugar allowance by one or two days a week. I was even more surprised when I looked at the sugar in each food individually. Four Red Vines have 140 calories and 16g of sugar. A cup of Special K cereal has 15g as does 2/3 cup of organic vanilla almond granola. 

Before these last couple days, I didn't know how much sugar was "a lot". Now I do and I'm better equipped to plan my meals for the day. 

Monday, May 11, 2015

Day 64 - Feeling Better

Monday, 5/11/15, 9:19pm

I am feeling much better than I was this morning. First off, I ran 8k today which is almost double the longest I've previously gone. I burned over 700 calories!

Next, I came in way under my daily calories limit AND my daily sugar limit! The sugar limit was what my goal was in hopes that my sugar cravings would start to subside. I did have a Skinny Cow ice cream sandwich after dinner but only after checking my net calories and sugar for the day. Either way, I always suffer the cravings at night and in the morning. I am feeling great tonight which could be because I cut down on the sugar today or it could be because I ate that ice cream sandwich. Tomorrow morning will be the true test. I wake up every morning with awful cravings, almost like a drug addict but instead of craving drugs I crave sugar. It's that intense. I'm really hoping the cravings have died down tomorrow morning...we'll just have to see. 

I also got a tone of back logged work done which included getting caught up with invoicing ALL of my clients. 

Between the exercise accomplishment, the diet accomplishment, or the work accomplishment, I am going to bed tonight feeling so much better than I was this weekend and this morning. 

Day 64

Monday - May 11, 2015 - 7:56am

It's not even 8am and I've already consumed half of the sugar I'm allotted today. I woke up again with severe sugar cravings. Since I got rid of all (or so I thought) the "quick fix" food I was forced to make steel cut oatmeal for breakfast. The downside is that it takes about five minutes to make and another five minutes to cool down. The cravings were so strong I dug into some chocolate Teddy Gramhs that were in a bowl on the counter (my daughter got out yesterday). 

I have to find a better way of managing these sugar cravings. Getting rid of most of the sugary food has helped but now I'm turning to food I wouldn't generally eat. 

This morning I had an idea. I've read articles about sugar cravings and they said to try and wait them out, something that's easier said than done when in full craving mode. This morning I thought, what if I forced myself to wait fifteen minutes or so to see if the craving would in fact pass? I don't have a ton of confidence this will work but don't have a ton to lose at this point. 

The morning and late night cravings are the worst. I'm going to see if I can find some more articles today that can help. 

I'm still pretty bummed about my lack of weightloss. I honestly feel that i will not lose weight doing what I'm doing. I'm tempted to try a more drastic measure: Atkins, HCG, juice fast for two weeks... I try and constantly remind myself that this is just as much about health as it is about weightloss. It's hard to stay positive though when I'm still super tired on Thursday and Friday nights and am still stuck in the same rut. 

Sunday, May 10, 2015

Day 63 - Feeling Blah

Sunday, May 10, 2015, 9:30pm

It is day 63 and I definitely understand why my diets have always failed around this time. Don't worry, I have t fallen off the wagon but the lack of weight loss is really started to de-motivate me. It's so frustrating doing all this work and barely losing any weight. I'm also struggling financially at the moment and am really going to have to put everything I have into work over the next few weeks. That means no more gym days... Ugh. I always knew the true challenge would be when I faced a bump in the road that would change up my informal routine. It looks like the time has come, and of course it's right around day 60. 

I have basically given up ok the scale. Yesterday I also went way over my daily calories. I am still having hardcore sugar cravings and if I don't find a way of curbing them, they will always be the downfall of my weigh loss progress. At day 63 I shouldn't be struggling with sugar cravings this much. I think I just haven't cut nearly enough out of my diet yet. Between the Snackwell cookies, push-up pops, Special K cereal, and Skinny Cow ice cream sandwiches, I am still fully addicted to sugar, now I just healthier versions of it. The popups, Special K, and Snackwell cookies are gone (thank god) and I don't plan on buying anymore anytime soon. 

Tomorrow is a new day and a new week. My focus will continue being how I feel and not how much the scale shows. This weeks goal is to cut my daily sugar intake to stay within the limits of the MFP app. 

Happy Mother's Day. 

Xoxo

Thursday, May 7, 2015

Day 60 - Morning Check-In

Thursday, 5/7/15, 7:13am

Today is day 60 and while I've been looking forward to this day for a long time I am filled with mixed emotions. 

At this point I'm not sure if the new scale I bought is busted or if I really just gained 1.5 pounds this past week. I understand that weight can fluctuate but according to the scale I have only lost about four pounds in 60 days!! I have been diligently tracking my calories and entering them into my daily food journal using MFP and on top of that I have been exercising 3 to 5 times a week. At least once or twice a week I even do a three hour workout at the gym!! I'm seriously busting my butt so I'm really confused at why the scale is not budging. I lose a pound one week only to gain it back the following week. 

I hate to be a broken record, but last summer I lost 28 pounds in sixty days so these 4 pounds in the same amount of time seriously doesn't make sense. I understand that muscle weighs more than fat or that you can plateau for a week or two. But let's be honest... this has been going on for over a month now. This isn't caused by muscle weighing more than fat and isn't caused because of a plateau. I've been changing up my workouts, I've been increasing the intensity, I even went on a 9 mile hike two weeks ago...  What more can I do??

As much of a bummer as this is I'm not going to let it affect my progress. I made a decision two months ago to change in the way my kids and I were eating. This is not a decision I made lately and it is not something that I'm going to stop doing just because an annoying ass scale won't budge. All I can do at this point is to keep doing exactly what I've been doing and just hope that it pays off in the long run.

I always seem to fall apart after day 60 and I now kind of understand how that could happen. It's so easy to lose motivation or to be discouraged when you're not seeing the results that you think you earned.

I believe what is important is your mindset when you start your healthy lifestyle. If you go into it thinking that it's a diet, one you have to follow to lose weight and then can stop once the weight falls off, you are setting yourself up to fail. In the past I always saw a light at the end of the tunnel. Every pound I lost was not only getting me closer to my weight loss goal but getting me closer to the day I could go back to eating "normal". I would think I was in it for the long haul but in reality I couldn't wait to  go back to normal eating. Normal eating didn't mean eating donuts for breakfast every morning but it did mean having them once in a blue moon. It also meant having food with more fat, basically a less restrictive diet. But mostly I don't think I was looking forward to the day where I woulmdy have to keep track of EVERYTHING I ate. I wouldn't have o count calories. I wouldn't have to research 

Sunday, May 3, 2015

Day 56 - Morning Check-In

Sunday - May 3, 2015

Tomorrow is by 34th birthday and tonight my family and I are going out to dinner to celebrate. I haven't eaten out in over 56 days since starting eating healthy so I'm a little apprehensive about dinner. I am confident that I won't go overboard. The challenge will be finding a lowfat meal on the menu. To prepare, I'm going to see if I can find their menu online. That way, I can look up the nutrition content in some of their entrees to make sure I select a lowfat healthy choice at dinner tonight. It's safe to say that I'll probably be eating an entree consisting baked chicken breast since that's most likely to have the lowest fat content but we'll just have to see. 

I was planning on getting a sitter last night to go out dancing with my friend but I decided against it. Not only was I super tired from housecleaning topped off with a four hour run/hike but I realized I wasn't mentally prepared to drink alcohol yet. When I have dieted in the past I would be doing super great... My confidence would be through the roof and I would feel super sexy and ready for a night out in the town. It was always the icing on the cake, all of the hard work I had put in was paying off and I looked and felt great. I would go out with friends to celebrate some occasion (usually a birthday) and also to celebrate my weightloss. We would have some drinks, laugh, dance, have some more drinks, and laugh some more. Everything would be going great, that is until we left the bar ... I don't know about you but I always get super hungry after a night of drinking and I don't crave carrot sticks and apple slices. No, I crave greasy fat and salty carbs. This meant that a night of drinking was almost always capped off with a trip to Jack in the Box (the only fast food place open in my area). When I drink I find it almost impossible to say "no" to my vices. This means that I ALWAYS end up smoking (I quit six years ago) and binge eating on the fattiest, most unhealthy food imaginable. But it wouldn't end there. The next morning I would wake up SUPER hung over (I can't drink without getting hungover anymore). I would sleep half of the day (wake up early but take two to three naps throughout the day). I would be so tired and feel so crummy that I wouldn't have the energy to get up and make food. I always managed to snack on crackers and other lowfat food. I'd make the kids mac and cheese for lunch... And then around 6pm Id be starving and trying to figure out what to make for dinner. Did I really want to eat baked bones skinless chicken for the umpteenth time? I would ALWAYS and I mean ALWAYS order a pizza at this point. Pizza is my hungover food and I can't ever seem to get away form that. Mentally Id reason with myself that I didn't eat all day (except for s few crackers) so I'd be under my daily calories so it was fine. This was always the start of the end for me. 

So you see why I'm not ready for a night of drinking yet. Of course there's a chance that Id do okay. I may only have one or two drinks (which would make me go over my daily calories). And maybe I would opt for healthy snacks when I got home. And maybe I would not be super duper hung over so maybe it would be easier to make good choices the following day. But I'm not risking it. 

I looked back at older posts from 2009 and 2011 and what the both have in common is the fact that I would fall of the wagon soon after a night of drinking. Coincidence? I think not. 

In the past I wanted to be healthier but that was only about 1% of the reason I was trying to lose weight. These days it more 70% is about being healthy while 30% is about losing weight. Drinking alcohol, especially in excess is NOT healthy and never will be. Most importantly though, I feel like complete crap the day after I drink, even if I only have s glass or two of wine. Sometimes I can get away with having a glass of wine with dinner and not feel like complete crap the next day (like when my friend came over for dinner a few weeks ago) but other times I'm not so lucky. I'm sure I will drink alcohol at some point but the longer I can go without it the better prepared I can be when that day finally comes.